Quarter life crisis??

Some thing which I wrote few days back and shared with some close friends....

Guys, This one is something serious. It is 8.10 in night and I am at office, Not because there is some mission critical kinda stuff happening here or something, Simply because it is raining outside and there is absolutely absolutely nothing to do at home or office. Today's highlights was that I shared some desperate PJs to few friends, normal activity of Fwding mails of one set of friends to another set of friends, Showed my face to my manager - twice, discussed on creating customer delight to one stranger, rushed to ATM at brigade road, took out money and had lunch alone, attended a soft skill course introduction. A day of such great achievements and I am feeling sick. A friend in Infy called up to ask if I know some interesting websites to pass time as his next bus from e-city is after half hour. We cribbed about Bangalore rains. Made fun of a guy who is probably as hopeless as we are, Then my practice manager finally called up to tell that my next assignment is delayed again and that means that another one week of same life. Hmmm.....

Life is strange; 2 months ago, while going through unending saga of meetings, deadlines, preparing MoMs, status reports, editing headers and footers of design documents and (p)leading offshore team, I used to dream about life of pre-sales, a peaceful cup of half tea, a walk on brigade road admiring dames, and zimbly freedom. IT nirvana!!! And today I am hating the way I have wasted last 2 months of my life......or rather 2 years....or may be 4!!! Am I a generalization of an IT disabled MBA? According to a Fwd, It is also called Quarter life crisis!!!

One of a similar case study like mine is frustrated as he doesn't know where he will be after 5 years. Sorry boss, but I am not even sure about next week!!!! During these testing times, I remembered what Diro used to ask us, WHY??? Why are we doing what we are doing?? What is that we want from our life. A good Appraisal ?? Hike ?? Money (How much is good enough), Winning the Rat Race?? (They say that winner will also be a rat only) What is affecting/driving us?? Peer pressure, parental pressure or a pressure created by us only?? Why I was happier when I was just a Techie and earning 1/4 of what I am now? What is happening Machan??? Why life is such a complicated function of alternatives???? Why am I writing this crap???

I think, I need some booze...

PS: Don't worry, I will be ok tomorrow...

Dreamy morning

Today morning I had a look at TOI ascent; there was this half page advertisement of my organization on last page. In that, among those normal techie jargons and job descriptions, a beautiful girl was smiling at readers inviting them to apply for those nerdy positions.... Good!!

If only I would have seen that ad during my b-school days, I would have got a straight A+ in my misleading data assignment!!! Because it is now more then 2 years in this company and I are yet to see any dame of that caliber to distract me from my work. I sighed in retrospect and proceeded to take bath.

And yeah, I also went for a walk in morning....Hope that continues...

XX L

You have to bear the pain as I have decided to pen more nonsense about me. You are also warned that if you decide to ignore this piece without honoring a proper read, you will face bad luck for x years where x = (10*Your waist size in inches)^0.25. Just assume that your waist size will grow @ 7.75% compounded annually and you will be even more concerned. So better read this or start running.Guys, I am putting on weight; that too in all the adorable areas. My super consciousness realized it a few minutes ago as the button of my trouser died a martyr's death. It popped out with a pitiful sound as I decided to shift my weight uncomfortably on seat after I stared at my computer screen for a good 13 minutes. (I am precise because my screen saver is set for 13 minutes) The button found its way to the floor, rambled for some time and stayed there lying face up. It was an emotional moment for me, though I must admit that I also felt relaxed beyond imagination!!! I picked up the button as a souvenir of this (Potentially) life changing event and gave a quick visit to the washroom. some readjustment of belt, some minor tucking out of shirt and I am at my voluptuous best again.

kind of disturbing indeed, I am filled with a sudden guilt of going to Subway for lunch and having sub with extra cheese, lotsa toppings, ice tea etc.... calories, calories, calories.... Its time to make some rang-de-basanti changes in me. I decided of joining some football club or at least some gym for the nth time but suddenly felt hungry again at the very thought. Decided to discuss the same with a friend over a cup of half tea on the terrace but couldn't resist the temptation to take the lift.
I think, I will start something from tomorrow morning. 10 Kgs in next 6 months seems to be a nice target. otherwise one day my would-be better half will find her better 'one and half' in me!!!! :))Will keep you updated on this...